Rewind, Repeat, Redo
Wednesday, February 15, 2012 at 2:35PM The last time I made the drive, I could barely breathe. I wasn't sure what to expect. I didn't know how it all worked. I was in a fog.
I couldn't find my son's birth certificate. I needed it to file for social security death benefits. My husband had just died.
He was born in a neighboring county. I needed it that day. I drove. I parked. I made my way through parking, I don't remember where, and through the glass doors, and the kiosk, and the window, and got the copy, and then I drove more, to the next county, where I sat, sobbing, uncontrollably, in the parking lot, before repeating a similar process, so much more surreal, to file for the benefits.
Now, over a year has passed. We have moved, and in the massive upheaval of it all, I cannot, for the life of me, find that damn birth certificate that I took such pains to get. And I need it. Again. For a totally different reason.
It's a good reason, but also a stressful one, and I cannot find the fucking thing. ANYWHERE.
So, I drove. Like a banshee, to beat the traffic. This time, it's two counties away. But, I knew what awaited me on the other end, so I was calm. Or calmer. Except for the memories of Why. Why I was here the last time. Why it was familiar. Why I needed it before.
I have it now. I will put it back in the Safe Place. The same Safe Place I always put it. <insert eye roll> Until I can't find it, and I have to get another one, cheeses help me.
Reader Comments (6)
Tell us where you decide to put it and we will remind you next time.
probably in the same safe place I always put the 11 other "fucking important" copies of a said "important document" that I put my own, as the cliche goes "of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most"
Safe. Deposit Box.
One stop peace of mind for $60 a year.
Yeah. See, that only works if I put it in there. Hence my situation.
I just have to say that I love that you described yourself as driving "like a banshee".... clearly I am totally self-absorbed.
I might've known you'd get a kick out of that. ;)