Snapshots Of Cancer

To pass the time.

To stay focused.

To remember moments.

To document progress and setbacks.

I take pictures of our days.

They’re almost always taken with my iPhone, so the quality is not great, but that’s not the point (see above).

Rarely are they posed.

The angles are odd, like my life…crooked, mixed up, confusing.

Surprising things show up in some of the shots…things I wasn’t expecting, some good, some not. Like our life.

And I take pictures of the love, even the kind that arrives in the mail from far-away friends.

Oh, and food, because I’ve become Bob’s personal Make-A-Wish Foundation when it comes to his culinary desires.

I don’t have a picture of his CT from this week, but the unofficial word is that Bob’s tumor that was of the greatest concern is shrinking thanks to the radiation he started receiving. We’ll be meeting with the doctor at Stanford next week to discuss how to proceed.

Thank you all for your prayers, messages, care packages, meals, entertaining our kids, and, and, and…you leave me overwhelmed by your awesomeness. We wouldn’t be here without you.

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Comments

[Marcy Massura]

I don't know what else to say, except. I hate cancer.

[Charmaine]

Thinking of you always - constantly - hoping - happy the tumor is shrinking, angry that cancer exists at all -- especially in your family where you and Bob share a true and abiding love for each other and your children. My heart cries for you and yet is astounded at your strength, for Bob, for your children and especially for you. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

[O'Neal]

That last pic totally reminded me of the time B got a hanker'n for a cherry iccee and my friend and I rode around for almost 3 hours checking every gas station in town! We did finally find the cherry flavor (it was oddly out of order at every other place we stopped!) and got the largest size they had and rushed it back to the hospital before it melted. Any time he had a craving for ANYthing, I made sure to do my best to get it for him to ease my nagging worry of him puking so much. His Dr said he was the 1st patient he had ever had that actually gained weight during treatment, lol!

Thank you for your pics and your posts despite everything being so crazy! Would it make sense to say I feel less agony worrying when I can see you are still a living, breathing, picture taking you?(And pretty hawt you if you don;t mind me say'n so... heeehee!) Good to see you still "connected" to the internetz, it's easier than you think to drift off and get lost!XOXOXOXO

[califmom]

:)

[Al_Pal]

I just visualized that tumor shrinking to nothingness, and disappearing like a black hole.*HUGS*