I Can’t Quit You?

We met with Dr. W today. He said the palpable tumor in Bob’s neck feels smaller. I believe him. I am cautiously optimistic. I am also scared shitless that maybe it’s just wishful thinking – that we all want so desperately for the tumor to be smaller we can’t help but think it is.

Fuck it. We’ll go with it. It’s smaller.

Bob’s blood counts are holding for now. Bendamustine is known for knocking white blood cells down hard and fast, so Dr. W is being cautious. Bob got to skip today’s neupogen shot, but only because his counts were well-above normal. Tomorrow I’ll be giving my first neupogen shot. we’ll give him another over the weekend, along with his daily lovenox shots to keep his blood thin (clots from the lymphoma or the Hickman port – not sure which).

Next week, he’ll go back for daily blood work to monitor for tumor lysis, drops in red and white blood counts, liver and kidney function, and all the good stuff. If all goes well, he’ll be able to receive another cycle of chemo within 2 1/2 to 3 weeks.

The other topic of conversation with Dr. W was Dr. Waffle Cone and our lack of success in firing his ass. It seems Stanford frowns upon you canning your doctor even after your doctor quits you. Huh.

Since we only need Dr. Waffle Cone’s brain, not his winning personality, and Dr. W has agreed to let Dr. Waffle Cone know his “compassion” was less-than-present if and when we make it back to that mahogany-walled institution, we’re fine with taking the high road on this one. Besides, how often do you get to use a man for his brains and not his body? Amirite, ladies?

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Comments

[Foss]

We hardly know each other, but I really feel for you and I hope things work out right and you both come out the other side of this shit healthy and well. Thinking of you both. Foss x

[califmom]

Thank you. :)

[Susan (WhyMommy)]

Smaller? That's great news to hear! Yay!

[Erin (Irregardlessly)]

I hate that you can't take Waffle Jerk out of the equation, but you keep being awesome anyways!

[Karen]

I haven't commented in a while but have just been reading lately! You are the STRONGEST woman I know and I don't even really know you!

It will be 7 years in July when I was in your shoes and fought like the bitches that we are to save our Hubby's! You ROCK!!

Smaller is GOOD and I hope for even smaller!! We like for SOME things to be small on our Hubbys!

My prayers are with you and your family!!!!

[Debra]

Paraphrasing the Buddha: If we are facing in the right direction, just keep walking!Smaller is the right direction!Debra

[MisterMike]

Dude.

Dr. Waffle Cone works for a university whose insignia is a friggin tree and yet their team mascot is the "cardinal". Not Cardinals, but Cardinal-a grammatic imperfection.

F Stanford, Go Spartans!!!!(just like the Spartans in "300"? A movie Bob liked and I gave to him? a movie about people prevailing even when the odds are against them? see the tie-in?)

[califmom]

It's a fierce and mighty cardinal, though, right? With gnashing teeth? No teeth? Steel balls? No balls? Fuck. We'll bring our own.

[Deanna - The Unnatural Mother]

Use and abuse... definitly use that man's brain, and than we'll abuse him when Bob kick's cancer in the face, the stomach and the ass!

[Al_Pal]

*grin* Strength AND humour. Truly, you are majestic. :P